Connecting to Christianity (and still being real)

I woke up this morning with two words in my head. (This is the second morning I've woken with a message and I will blog about that later). Let Go I have to admit, I've never truly been good at letting go. I love to hold onto people, and moments. I do appreciate that I had them in my life or I had that experience, but I don't want to let go. I want more, and sometimes it just is not meant to be. You know the old saying, we make plans and God laughs. But, in God's typical fashion this week my study this morning is about setting boundries. Removing toxic influences. Which relationships I should be investing in and which I should not be. And still learning, after all these years when to walk away. Is it easy, no, but God wants us to continue growing and sometimes that means he has to remove people who will not help us grow. Matthew 7:6 Do not give that which is holy to dogs, and do not throw your pearls to the pigs, for they will trample them under their feet and...

I recently bought a new ring at Pandora. Soon as I was finished with the purchase I took a picture, with the intent to post it on social media. In my effort to try to disconnect, even a little, I stopped to think if I really needed to post it. For the first time I thought, shouldn't I let the kid see it first instead of seeing it on social media with everyone else? I now wonder how many times she found out about anything I've purchased or received via social media and not a conversation that we could have in person. So I didn't post the picture, we were having lunch anyway. I mean, the important people should know first. I love social media, but I do realize it causes complications. I can't even imagine what growing up would be like seeing everyone's perfect life all the time. One Sunday I challenged myself and put a timer on my social media access. First an hour, then two hours, then four hours, and now I can put it down for the night to be present. I think ...

I find in ministry that songs find you. When you need them. Well, honeslty it's not a coincidence. I've heard Rescue by Lauren Daigle many times and I think because it was so big I ignored it. This song is my prayer for a special someone right now. That she realizes that God is fighting for her and not against her. So I learned it today for my last week at church. I've always had the habit of praying for this person. From birth. I prayed about the people that would come into her life. People to help her grow as a person and as a Christian with her walk. And as I'm learning this amazing song here are the reminders, God is searching for you and He will find you. He'll never stop. He wants you to love Him first. Hang on. He's coming. He hears your S.O.S. J

There is a Toby Mac song that I love. It's called Hello Future. The last verse could have came from my journal because as a Worship leader in the Christian church I have to say that I can take some serious time off. I don't know why. Maybe it's selfishness, or burn out. This last time I wasn't even expecting a break because I never walked away from Him personally, just the church where I was leading at the time (and that was Covid so it just happened really, oh and one other factor, I'll get to that too). The song ends with this title and thanks Toby. I'm home again. So here I am, starting a new blog and my vision is this, to share my experience as a leader in the world wide Church of God with only a few conditions. 1. No long posts. Short and sweet and to the point. 2. To be real. 3. To be honest. Here we go, new post coming. One day I realized my daughter finds out a lot of information about me from social media. Gasp. So let's go there first. ...